it's friendship,

Sunday, January 20, 2008

HELLLOOO! Im PL! think u guys are really busy wif homeworks and cca so dun hav time to update the blog. Anw soon is CHINESE NEW YEAR! hehe, we must meet up and go back to GWPS! I miss everyone- u guys, mdm tan, mr chua n etc. How I wish I am still primary 6! I miss the primary school life. Now in rv, everything sucks! It is so stressful, having so many competitors. Friends? There is a girl named WJ n no one wants to sit with her. Everyone has a partner except me, my so-called best fren paiseh me n so I had to sit wif WJ. I cried,I jus dun wana to sit wif her. But in the end, my other good fren sat wif her. I feel so bad, letting her to sit wif WJ but then... I think there is no way I can find true friend in RV cos they refuse to help when i m despo(desperate for help). MAyb is my problem?

18 DAYS MORE to GWPS!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

YO MAN! :D
:X

Sorry I sound so cheerful when Xiaohan's so down.
Anw this will be a short post cause i got to go soon.
&& yes, this blog is way too dead. It seems that there wasn't even this blog at all.
I will TRY to make the skin, but no guarantee and anyway Xiaohan's is nicer than mine. :P
Ya xiaohan, just cheer up and let her cool down. Things will be better soon alright?
WE WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE FOREVER! WOOTS! x333s

I think my screw's loose. ._.

Friday, January 4, 2008

Hey, Xiaohan here again !;D
WE NEED A NEW SKIN !
Seriously , let us get this blog working and going .
It's sorta like a private blog eh ?
For us 6 to share what's going on with each other only .
No trespassers too ;D
Anws , yuppp , school has started and we're all gonna get pretty busy too since at the end of this year we'll be choosing our subject combinations .
Hope we'll all get the subjects we want !
Yeah and btw , I've just been elected as class monitress/chairwoman . lol .
I dont know if I can do a good job but Im going to try my best because I know I'll have support from my class and more importantly, from you all . 6A class motto uh ? To do our best & be at our best all the times(:

Sort of argued with my friend yesterday . Not really argue , I mean what if u've never done anything wrong and your friend starts assuming things about u which is totally not true and she tells u to go away when u try to show concern . I got a lil pissed after that but tried to chill and thought that well if i'm in her situation i'll probably feel the same so I wasn't angry . But she got angry instead . Which is totally off . She's the one assuming things about me first . WHen I didn't even do anything AT ALL . One min she's fine then suddenly she walked away and dont want us to go near her . Ya , she's a sensitive person . We're supposed to be friends and friends are supposed to have trust in each other right ? If not, it'll be like the war saga all over again. That's something I'll NEVER want to happen again in my life . It's so painful and we were all hurt. So I sent my friend a SEVEN-sms long sms and I told her not to misunderstand and I said it all very nicely, as though I'm the one at fault when it's actually the other way round . But her next 4-sms long reply was rude . Well u guys know me better. She didn't use use those super rude vulgarities of course . But well it's like the sms thinggy all over again it's those insulting words. I dont know . I'm trying, trying to understand her . I NEVER EVER expect ppl to be like me . I NEVER EVER ask ppl to understand how it's like to be me . When I'm about to go crazy cos of stress or anything . Guess what time I had dinner yesterday? 11PM . I reached home at around 7.30PM but I had to settle admin stuff for my class and I had a near 1h talk with the assistant monitress, my friend. And after that I had to email my FT and do this and that . I alr had a long day. The night before I had less than 5h slp and had to wake up at 5.30am for sch . In school I've to take charge of my class and the whole times I was under the stress of getting them punctual for assebmly, trying to remember to collect the newsletters the coffeebooks and to run around doing errands for teachers and of course always consciously aware of the fact that I'm a class monitress I can't do anything wrong . And the start and end of lesson to rmb to lead the greetings . After sch it's CCA exhibition so we had to go around and around trying to persuade sec1s to sign upf or our CCA. The only meal i had was during recess and my next meal was dinner at 11pm. I didn't know how I actually survived ystd . Then those smses came in and I was more worried abt it than my dinner which caused me to get yelled at from my dad . And I had to cook my own dinner because it's so late alr . So obivously I wasn't in a a good shape alr . Hungry tired, still in my hongzi I had to dealw ith my friend too . I was worried I might be angry so after her sms I didn't reply immediately cos I was busy posting the admin stuff at class blog and also trying t give time for both of us to chill . But she thought I was angry and keep saying she had been betrayed before so i wont know how she feel because Im not her . I realised she's really agitated but if I still dont reply she will think Im angry when IM NOT. Which was why I tried to explain to her properly . But her reply was way off for me .
This is what she wrote: Whatever man . if you want to judge me , try walking a mile in my shoes . Ive family problems jus nw , i cried n cried until i cant cry anymore . Ive had someone who says im wrong to be angry n do things on spur of moment lik not sure who can b trusted anymore ?! Ive been betrayed , not you . I wanted to be alone , not you . You try takin that crap if you were me ! Not everyone is as lucky as you or huipin or jessy okay ! This whole life , trust is not everything . Whats abt care ? Caring to see others' point of view. Bloody hell , my life SUCKS !
I really cried after that . Ive been trying to udnerstand her . She's have PSM[Premenstrual symptons] so yeah of course the moodswings . But I didn't do anything wrong at all . I did care, I asked her what's wrong but she told me to GO AWAY . Every single time she cries we're always there for her . But she can't take us for granted right ? BECAUSE THE THING I HATE MOST IS PEOPLE TAKING ME FOR GRANTED . U guys know this , to be my friend we need to have mutual trust if not our friendship will never work out .
Hurt , haven't we experience that together ? That mere 3 days were the worst I ever ever had . And i had to cry myself to sleep . In sch i have tear stains on my face and even guuys like Lee XinLei knows something is wrong . I truly love 6A even though we weren't perfect. Not even somewhr near there . I was backstabbed by my OWN BEST FRIEND which results my friendships with ANOTHER TWO OF MY BEST FRIENDS TO BROKE . Tell me about hurt . Am I lucky to accept all that ?
This is wrong , so wrong . Can someone just tell me what I did wrongly ?
Sorry, i just need to let all these out . Cos I'm tired , tired of always playing the role of Ms Nice and Ms perfectionist just to let ppl whome i care too much abt sometimes to be happy . Is that where Ive gone wrong ?
I just wanna thank u guys, for always being there for me. Because i know that no matter what happens u'll still be my side makes me feel so much better . Because only u guys know me the best . ♥